I feel so unsatisfied.

This is the 2nd night in the row I'm making a solid run in a decent sized tournament field. It's really sick how well it seems I'm running with the little I'm playing.

I just got 21/351 players in a $5.50 regular MTT. Last night I took 15/244 in a $2.25 deepstack turbo MTT. Then I checked last months excel sheet and I see 24/691 , 19/368 , 28/377. Then of course I took 2nd in a 90 man as well good for $50 profit.

With the exception of the 90 man all these close but no cigar runs are difficult to swallow. I really thought that coming up short in the last 4 runs tonight's $5.50 would have been better. The Dray Days Twitter page has all the updates as I played it through so I won't rehash hands but it's like I always say: if you're going to run good in a tournament, do it at the end.

I will always carry reservations when I run great early or midway through tourneys. Historically any time I've won or final tabled something big it's been tight play followed by a good run down the stretch. Maybe I shouldn't think negatively but it's based on history what can I say?

Besides fun poker tournaments online I've had a great weekend so far. I got to spend quite a bit of good quality time with Kristina as she's now in her 9th month of pregnancy officially. With my schedule it's kind of lame that even when I'm off I end up sleeping a large portion of her Wednesday's off. We're managing though and I'm still keeping my fingers crossed that some kind of schedule change is coming. I have a resume submitted for Billing at work which is M-F but it's been 2 weeks and I haven't even heard about an interview. :(

My old boss at KTSW sent me an email about a job opening at Clear Channel this week. It's an audio design engineer position producing commercials and promotions for the cluster of Austin stations they own. I went to Mix today and burned off everything that I produced when I was unemployed and able to pick up hours working in that department.

Came back home and earlier tonight made my first production demo with short clips of several different projects to try and show my "range". I probably listened to it 30 times after finishing it. Did my cover letter and resume and sent them in with the mp3, so now all I can do is hope. A steady full time radio gig and in production would be an AMAZING opportunity to learn and grow.

Sympathy River

Tonight was a prime example of why online cash games typically make me want to fall face first onto the corner of my coffee table. I get really bored playing them for extended periods of time. I've sat at the same $25 table tonight for almost 4 hours and I've yet to get over $30ish bucks at any point. To summarize it has been - stay even, lose a little, win a decent pot, lose a slightly bigger pot not long after the win, grind up a bit more, win a decent pot, lose a slightly bigger pot again right after the win.

Finally it's 5am, I've busted out of the deepstack $3 tournament I was playing alongside this cash table and I'm down to $10. Maybe I should have left a few times when I was at $15 and cut my losses. It never seemed at any point like I was on the fast track to double up. I can stand to lose $25 in one session bankroll wise but I certainly would be irritated with it, especially considering it would be about half of my recent 90 man 2nd place profits. But at this point I figure: "So what if I lose it? Who cares? I have no major complaints about they way I've played."

Then I play this hand with a guy who's sat with me for almost 150 hands:

Full Tilt Poker Game #14901417279: Table Ash (6 max) - $0.10/$0.25 - No Limit Hold'em - 5:53:13 ET - 2009/09/24
Seat 1: spotDEspot ($25)
Seat 2: Laugo ($53.42)
Seat 3: Dray ($10.82)
Seat 4: conics1234 ($30.29)
Seat 5: jumsoon ($4.50)
Seat 6: duffmanbluffman ($29.94)
duffmanbluffman posts the small blind of $0.10
spotDEspot posts the big blind of $0.25
The button is in seat #5
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [9c Jh]
Laugo folds
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $1
conics1234 calls $1
jumsoon folds
duffmanbluffman has been disconnected
duffmanbluffman has reconnected
duffmanbluffman folds
spotDEspot folds
spotDEspot adds $0.25
*** FLOP *** [7c Jc 8s]
Dray checks
conics1234 bets $1.25
Dray calls $1.25
*** TURN *** [7c Jc 8s] [7d]
Dray checks
conics1234 bets $3.50
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $8.57, and is all in
conics1234 calls $5.07
Dray shows [9c Jh]
conics1234 shows [Js Ad]
*** RIVER *** [7c Jc 8s 7d] [Th]
Dray shows a straight, Jack high
conics1234 shows two pair, Jacks and Sevens
Dray wins the pot ($20.90) with a straight, Jack high
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $21.99 | Rake $1.09
Board: [7c Jc 8s 7d Th]
Seat 1: spotDEspot (big blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 2: Laugo didn't bet (folded)
Seat 3: Dray showed [9c Jh] and won ($20.90) with a straight, Jack high
Seat 4: conics1234 showed [Js Ad] and lost with two pair, Jacks and Sevens
Seat 5: jumsoon (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 6: duffmanbluffman (small blind) folded before the Flop

I'm still playing at this table and have yet to get above $30. I'm still sitting with the initial buyin of $25. Maybe NOW I should quit break even...but dammit if I don't still want to either bust or double up because this is BORING!!!!

ANYWAY

I'm going to play a tournament tonight in Round Rock with a group I've never played with before. It's a group Herby usually plays with on Thursdays. $30 buyin with WSOP structure, of course what really matters is how fast the blinds go up. Yesterday was my birthday so I can justify spending a little $ but lately it's been tight. This may be one of my last live poker appearances for a while before Aubrey arrives and Kristina and I both become immersed in "baby land". :) I sure hope the game is pleasant and the people are a) nice b) not annoying and c) not jerks or poker ego trippers. Because if the last two are true I at least want to make some money off of them.

Thoughts on screen names

I'm laying in bed two tabling six handed cash games and there's a player named Daniel Atkinson and another named Travis Mawley at either table. I don't have a great reason for it but people who just use their real names as their screen name on poker sites bug the fuck out of me. I don't know maybe because it just screams to me that they don't have any creative side to them whatsoever.

I know that's assuming a lot from just an anonymous name on the internets, but fuck it odon't care LOL.

This is my blog dammit! Where the hell else am I gonna spur this random bullshit?

Sickening

I've played hardly any poker the last week and a half which is really rare. Got on tonight and I swear it seemed like I was constantly running into Aces and Kings. Man it fucking sucks coming back to just get kicked in the nuts repeatedly.

Only silver lining was winning one of my $2.25s, but I had to crack AA to do that. Go figure.

I listened to this about 6 times while I was playing tonight. I really hope Kris Allen overtakes Adam gayemotheaterboy on Idol next week.



The best part is when he goes up in pitch towards the end on "heartllleeeeessss". Sick sick sick!

Nevermind

I'm not playing the satellite after all because I failed to check my work schedule at the station to see I'm working tomorrow night instead of tonight. I've been working the same Saturday night shift regularly for months and months so even though I thought I checked the schedule this week I didn't. I didn't realize until I walked into the studio to see Cassiday all set up.

To top it all off I finally got all the WoW software installed only to realize that it's not going to work on my fucking computer.

What a bunch of bullshit.

Ehhh

OK after getting on a little rush only to bubble both games, I think I may have just lost the tournament bug. Over 3 hours of game time with nothing to show for it. I just remembered that's probably what I hate most about MTTs.

At least tonight is the Dollhouse episode I've been waiting for! Alpha's finally gonna show up and wreak some motherfucking havoc.

Laugh over peoples ideas about late tournament play

So I just busted 7th out of that 90 man I mentioned last post. And the guy who called my shoved and spiked the river to knock me out asks "Why All In?" So I feel compelled to have an ego know-it-all moment.

Numbers don't mean anything late in tournaments. Stack size and fold equity is EVERYTHING. And for those who haven't figured it out yet: PUSHING ALL IN with a marginal hand IS ALWAYS BETTER than CALLING ALL IN.

For example I played at the Water Tank on Thursday and freaked everyone out when I started open shoving 13K with blinds at 500/1000. It was freaking people out because it THIRTEEN THOUSAND AND THAT'S SO MUCH.

NO IT'S NOT. It's 13 big blinds and taking 1500 in blinds represents more than a 10% increase in my stack size. Here's a great example:

Full Tilt Poker Game #11898871252: $3 + $0.30 KO Sit & Go (89178732), Table 10 - 1200/2400 Ante 300 - No Limit Hold'em - 11:54:21 ET - 2009/04/27
Seat 2: Dray (27,320)
Seat 3: Artemii 83 (36,652)
Seat 4: QUOVADIS37 (27,128)
Seat 5: Xblack iceX (82,540)
Seat 6: Daholyone (19,284)
Seat 7: susu56 (25,866)
Seat 8: rocktum (51,210)
Dray antes 300
Artemii 83 antes 300
QUOVADIS37 antes 300
Xblack iceX antes 300
Daholyone antes 300
susu56 antes 300
rocktum antes 300
Xblack iceX posts the small blind of 1,200
Daholyone posts the big blind of 2,400
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [As Th]
susu56 folds
rocktum folds
Dray raises to 27,020, and is all in
Artemii 83 folds
QUOVADIS37 folds
Xblack iceX folds
Daholyone folds
Uncalled bet of 24,620 returned to Dray
Dray mucks
Dray wins the pot (8,100)
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 8,100 | Rake 0
Seat 2: Dray collected (8,100), mucked
Seat 3: Artemii 83 folded before the Flop
Seat 4: QUOVADIS37 (button) folded before the Flop
Seat 5: Xblack iceX (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 6: Daholyone (big blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 7: susu56 folded before the Flop
Seat 8: rocktum folded before the Flop

I have just barely over 10bbs if you're not paying attention to the antes. There's 5700 in the pot before cards are even dealt out. That's 20% of my stack! It's VERY worth it to pick up the blinds and antes.

Some people tend to think that the later the tournament and the bigger the blinds, the more "real poker" is being played. BULLSHIT. If you have 20bbs or less I'm sorry you're not playing real poker anymore. You're at the point where if you put any significant portion of your stack and fold you're making a big mistake.

In the above hand, why would I want to raise to 6000 to get called, cbet 8000 on a missed flop and fold to a raise leaving myself with 13000 and 5 bbs? Just fucking shove it and see all 5 cards. #1 there are people who will call you with hands you dominate like lower Aces, KT, QT, etc. #2 if you shove against people who barely have you covered you can make them fold better hands that are marginal such as AJ, or pocket pairs like 66, 77, or 88 because they're afraid you might have a big one. #3 If they call you with a pair like that, you're guaranteed to see all 5 cards and you can't get pushed off a flop you miss. When you're so low on chips you should be happy to race for 50% equity instead of being stuck lower pair vs higher pair for 20% or being dominated by a higher kicker like AT vs AK for 30%.

Finally I'll say this because I've spent too long on this anyway. When you're shoving consistently without anyone calling you, someone's going to want to take a stand because you have a maniac image. Meaning, they're going to start calling you with weaker and weaker hands. And if you just shove your big hands exactly like you would your others, they're going to pay you off and you'll build a stack so that you CAN play real poker. (I'd say 50bbs at least in tournament play)

I'm not really complaining because I want people to play bad and have totally skewed poker theories that translate into money for me. I've completely stopped the whole know-it-all strategy talk stuff when I'm at a table though. It's stupid and everyone thinks they're right even if they're completely wrong.

But I will reserve the right away from the table to talk strategy and learn from other players who actually care to think about the game, and also to make fun of the bizarre retarded things that people who don't care do and say at the table.

And seriously if you haven't read Harrington on Holdem v.2. You really should.

Here's my last hand from the tourney:


Full Tilt Poker Game #11898914745: $3 + $0.30 KO Sit & Go (89178732), Table 10 - 1500/3000 Ante 400 - No Limit Hold'em - 11:58:30 ET - 2009/04/27
Seat 2: Dray (38,520)
Seat 4: QUOVADIS37 (32,428)
Seat 5: Xblack iceX (73,640)
Seat 6: Daholyone (23,170)
Seat 7: susu56 (57,832)
Seat 8: rocktum (44,410)
Dray antes 400
QUOVADIS37 antes 400
Xblack iceX antes 400
Daholyone antes 400
susu56 antes 400
rocktum antes 400
susu56 posts the small blind of 1,500
rocktum posts the big blind of 3,000
The button is in seat #6
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Jd Qs]
Dray raises to 38,120, and is all in
QUOVADIS37 folds
Xblack iceX folds
Daholyone folds
susu56 calls 36,620
rocktum folds
Dray shows [Jd Qs]
susu56 shows [3d 3s]
*** FLOP *** [8h Js Td]
*** TURN *** [8h Js Td] [Kd]
*** RIVER *** [8h Js Td Kd] [3c]
Dray shows a pair of Jacks
susu56 shows three of a kind, Threes
susu56 wins the pot (81,640) with three of a kind, Threes
Dray stands up
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 81,640 | Rake 0
Board: [8h Js Td Kd 3c]
Seat 2: Dray showed [Jd Qs] and lost with a pair of Jacks
Seat 4: QUOVADIS37 folded before the Flop
Seat 5: Xblack iceX folded before the Flop
Seat 6: Daholyone (button) folded before the Flop
Seat 7: susu56 (small blind) showed [3d 3s] and won (81,640) with three of a kind, Threes
Seat 8: rocktum (big blind) folded before the Flop

While Full Tilt's down...

I was just in the middle of 3 games and now Full Tilt's servers went down, so time to catch up.

The good luck last Saturday continued as I took down a $3.30 90 man while working at the station. That boosted my roll up to $250 and I haven't seen that much in my account since NOVEMBER. The one I took down was actually my 3rd shot after doing nothing and being card dead in my first two. I was thinking to myself, maybe 3rd time's the charm in the $3.30 when I entered the last one. The difference between the winning game and the first two? A fuck it mentality. Seriously. In turbo tournament poker, a little bit of fuck it goes a long way.

The hilarious hand that started my run was me reraising the guy on my right with AT and he calls. I hit nothing on the flop but my stack is just slightly over the pot size so when he checks, I just shove and he calls with T5 of hearts with 2 hearts on the board and misses. At the final table I remember winning a big coinflip with 66 against AK to get a decent stack. After that I just ran pretty hot.

It's almost tempting to start multitabling $5.50 SNGs now but I'm going to wait and work up the roll a little bit higher before going there. I'm sure the difficulty level is the same as $2.25's but I want the added protection. And since I've gone back to grinding the $2.25's I've been running/playing not so good.

Before FTP went down I was listening to the 2+2 poker podcast and they were talking about this clip of Annie Duke from the Celebrity Apprentice:



Umm that generated unpleasant images in my brain. I've never been that crazy about Annie Duke. She's one of the most well known female poker players but I really don't consider her to be THAT great. Plus I think she's pretty annoying personally. She gave an interview about the Ultimate Bet scandal on Pokerroad and she straight up filibustered them and wouldn't let them ask any questions. It was stupid.

My favorite female poker player is probably Kathy Liebert, even though some people think she's annoying. LOL Why she doesn't rub me the wrong way I don't know, I guess my respect level for her skill negates me caring about her personality. I've never gotten what the big deal is. Jennifer Harman's a close 2nd for fav female pro.

While we're on the subject if you've never seen this clip of Jennifer Tilly on Poker After Dark it's a classic you must know NOW:



Everyone's reaction to how bad she played the hand is what makes this so awesome. Harman looks disgusted, Lindgren looks like "Wow", and Ivey looks like half shock and half I'm trying so hard not to laugh my ass off.

One last thing, in poker news the WPT Championship is happening right now at the Bellagio. I honestly haven't been keeping up with many of the tourneys since I've been unemployed, but I checked in to see who's left and there are quite a few noticeable names including well known online players. Check it out.

Annoying

The start of this month I was running insanely good and the last few days it's starting to even out. The last 2 or 3 rounds I've put in I've cashed in maybe 1 out of 4, no wins either.

This just happened and I wanted to post it because it's really annoying to me. It really eggs me when I've spent 10 minutes shoving and abusing the bubble and the tightwad that's not playing anything does this to me in 2 hands:


Full Tilt Poker Game #11625563951: $2 +

$0.25 Sit & Go (87248110), Table 1 -

150/300 - No Limit Hold'em - 10:24:47

ET - 2009/04/11
Seat 3: 1Krom (4,380)
Seat 4: Dray (4,415)
Seat 7: romasik77 (1,910)
Seat 8: skeyediver (2,795)
Dray posts the small blind of 150
romasik77 posts the big blind of 300
The button is in seat #3
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Ks Th]
skeyediver folds
1Krom folds
Dray raises to 4,415, and is all in
romasik77 has 15 seconds left to act
romasik77 calls 1,610, and is all in
Dray shows [Ks Th]
romasik77 shows [6c 5c]
Uncalled bet of 2,505 returned to Dray
*** FLOP *** [Qc 8c 2c]
*** TURN *** [Qc 8c 2c] [9h]
*** RIVER *** [Qc 8c 2c 9h] [5d]
Dray shows King Queen high
romasik77 shows a flush, Queen high
romasik77 wins the pot (3,820) with a

flush, Queen high
Dray is feeling angry
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 3,820 | Rake 0
Board: [Qc 8c 2c 9h 5d]
Seat 3: 1Krom (button) didn't bet

(folded)
Seat 4: Dray (small blind) showed [Ks

Th] and lost with King Queen high
Seat 7: romasik77 (big blind) showed

[6c 5c] and won (3,820) with a flush,

Queen high
Seat 8: skeyediver didn't bet (folded)

Full Tilt Poker Game #11625569699: $2 +

$0.25 Sit & Go (87248110), Table 1 -

150/300 - No Limit Hold'em - 10:25:20

ET - 2009/04/11
Seat 3: 1Krom (4,380)
Seat 4: Dray (2,505)
Seat 7: romasik77 (3,820)
Seat 8: skeyediver (2,795)
romasik77 posts the small blind of 150
skeyediver posts the big blind of 300
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Ac 4h]
1Krom folds
Dray raises to 2,505, and is all in
romasik77 raises to 3,820, and is all

in
skeyediver folds
romasik77 shows [Js Ah]
Dray shows [Ac 4h]
Uncalled bet of 1,315 returned to

romasik77
*** FLOP *** [Kc Jh 5h]
Dray: gg
*** TURN *** [Kc Jh 5h] [7h]
*** RIVER *** [Kc Jh 5h 7h] [2s]
romasik77 shows a pair of Jacks
Dray shows Ace King high
romasik77 wins the pot (5,310) with a

pair of Jacks
Dray stands up
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 5,310 | Rake 0
Board: [Kc Jh 5h 7h 2s]
Seat 3: 1Krom didn't bet (folded)
Seat 4: Dray (button) showed [Ac 4h]

and lost with Ace King high
Seat 7: romasik77 (small blind) showed

[Js Ah] and won (5,310) with a pair of

Jacks
Seat 8: skeyediver (big blind) folded

before the Flop

Sorry for the poor formatting this is just how it looked after I pasted it into Notepad. I got my first rakeback deposit yesterday for $3.70 which is cool.

On a real world note I've been working as a temp at a call center for the last week. The shift is from 7am-2:30pm and the people there are really laid back. They don't regiment your breaks they just want you to document them. The break room has internet and Wii. It sucks getting up going to be early and waking up at 5:45 but I really like getting out at 2:30. Not battling traffic is pretty sweet too.

I still need to keep looking for a permanent job though. I did my minimum searches all on Monday when I was off and nothing since. I called and did a phone interview for a dentist's office, still haven't heard back about that. One of Kristina's friends had a lead for me too in her friend's husband's office. Some guy is going to be putting in his 2 weeks this week I think. It's an inventory type job and it's supposed to be a pretty decent company with lots of perks.

What else...we're probably going to be getting a new car soon. We took Kristina's civic to get appraised for hail damage yesterday and they said it was really close to totaling out. So we might end up taking the money and getting a used car that has four doors. That's our primary concern because trying to get a baby in and out of that thing would be a pain in the ass. I always thought we'd be replacing my car but it's been 3 or 4 years since I've talked about it and it's never happened. It's at 191K miles right now (Mazda Protege) and even though it has no AC, among other things, I still think I can get a couple more years out of it.

Also, we were looking into possibly transferring into a 1 bed/1 study apartment this week that was going to be cheaper than the rent we're paying. But that got totally screwed because I don't have a job and so I wouldn't be able to pass their screen for that. Dammit. Kristina wasn't happy with the situation, but I thought about it and at least the timing of my layoff was good to where our lease isn't up until August. If it had come up sooner and we were looking to move we'd be facing the same situation.

That's enough for now. Here's a made for TV hand that I played this morning:

Full Tilt Poker Game #11625332924: $2 + $0.25 Sit & Go (87248199), Table 1 - 60/120 - No Limit Hold'em - 10:01:30 ET - 2009/04/11
Seat 1: volucer (3,520)
Seat 2: bellheim (2,350)
Seat 3: crazyboyroy (2,820)
Seat 4: Sphageus (935)
Seat 5: SwannySA (1,490)
Seat 6: Dray (1,650)
Seat 7: mt204 (735)
volucer posts the small blind of 60
bellheim posts the big blind of 120
The button is in seat #7
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Ac 4c]
crazyboyroy folds
Sphageus has 15 seconds left to act
Sphageus folds
SwannySA folds
Dray raises to 1,650, and is all in
mt204 folds
volucer folds
bellheim calls 1,530
Dray shows [Ac 4c]
bellheim shows [5d 5c]
*** FLOP *** [3s Ad 5s]
*** TURN *** [3s Ad 5s] [2c]
*** RIVER *** [3s Ad 5s 2c] [5h]
Dray shows a straight, Five high
bellheim shows four of a kind, Fives
bellheim wins the pot (3,360) with four of a kind, Fives
Dray stands up
The blinds are now 80/160
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 3,360 | Rake 0
Board: [3s Ad 5s 2c 5h]
Seat 1: volucer (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 2: bellheim (big blind) showed [5d 5c] and won (3,360) with four of a kind, Fives
Seat 3: crazyboyroy didn't bet (folded)
Seat 4: Sphageus didn't bet (folded)
Seat 5: SwannySA didn't bet (folded)
Seat 6: Dray showed [Ac 4c] and lost with a straight, Five high
Seat 7: mt204 (button) didn't bet (folded)

Wow even MORE pathetic

Played 3 point satellites for the big Sunday game. Two of them turbo 54 mans, and a regular 18 man. Both types the top 2 "cash" with 2nd getting points and first the seat.

I just got 3RD IN ALL THREE OF THEM.

This always happens to me. I'm on tilt and off to work.

*)&$*)$*(^@)(#*^$(*#@^$)@#$&*(

JUST finished playing a total of 10 turbo freerolls to try and satellite into a round 2 WSOP tourney. The last two tournaments I run well and make two final tables. Top 2 get the seat, I got 3rd and 4th.

I know it's free but I'm still pissed. I don't care how stupid that makes me sound.

Fucking River

Well, not really. I just wanted to post the hands this idiot I've been playing with for the last two hours that I should have won. First I win against him as soon as he sits down. So after this I know he's a moron:

FullTiltPoker Game #10330587214: Table Bottle (deep 6) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 0:47:44 ET - 2009/01/30
Seat 1: DrBabyEinstein ($23.80)
Seat 2: Ampli ($10.50)
Seat 3: break N U ($3.30)
Seat 4: avbuyer ($5.65)
Seat 5: Dray ($7.65)
Seat 6: RY2008 ($9.40)
RY2008 posts the small blind of $0.05
DrBabyEinstein posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #5
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Qc Kd]
Ampli calls $0.10
break N U folds
avbuyer calls $0.10
Dray calls $0.10
RY2008 calls $0.05
DrBabyEinstein checks
*** FLOP *** [Kh 2s 2d]
RY2008 checks
DrBabyEinstein checks
Ampli bets $0.60
avbuyer folds
Dray calls $0.60
RY2008 folds
DrBabyEinstein folds
*** TURN *** [Kh 2s 2d] [Qs]
Ampli bets $0.70
Dray calls $0.70
*** RIVER *** [Kh 2s 2d Qs] [Jh]
Ampli bets $1
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $3
Ampli calls $2
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Dray shows [Qc Kd] two pair, Kings and Queens
Ampli mucks
Dray wins the pot ($8.20) with two pair, Kings and Queens
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $9.10 | Rake $0.90
Board: [Kh 2s 2d Qs Jh]
Seat 1: DrBabyEinstein (big blind) folded on the Flop
Seat 2: Ampli mucked [Kc 3h] - two pair, Kings and Twos
Seat 3: break N U didn't bet (folded)
Seat 4: avbuyer folded on the Flop
Seat 5: Dray (button) showed [Qc Kd] and won ($8.20) with two pair, Kings and Queens
Seat 6: RY2008 (small blind) folded on the Flop


Then this happens:

FullTiltPoker Game #10330614355: Table Bottle (deep 6) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 0:49:44 ET - 2009/01/30
Seat 1: DrBabyEinstein ($23.65)
Seat 2: Ampli ($4.85)
Seat 3: break N U ($3.30)
Seat 4: avbuyer ($5.10)
Seat 5: Dray ($11.45)
Seat 6: RY2008 ($10.75)
Ampli posts the small blind of $0.05
break N U posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #1
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Ad Ks]
avbuyer folds
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $0.40
RY2008 calls $0.40
DrBabyEinstein folds
Ampli calls $0.35
break N U folds
*** FLOP *** [Jd 5h Kd]
Ampli checks
Dray bets $1
RY2008 has 15 seconds left to act
RY2008 folds
Ampli calls $1
*** TURN *** [Jd 5h Kd] [Ah]
Ampli checks
Dray bets $3.30
Ampli calls $3.30
*** RIVER *** [Jd 5h Kd Ah] [Qd]
Ampli checks
Dray bets $0.20
Ampli calls $0.15, and is all in
Uncalled bet of $0.05 returned to Dray
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Dray shows [Ad Ks] two pair, Aces and Kings
Ampli shows [Qh Qc] three of a kind, Queens
Ampli wins the pot ($9.20) with three of a kind, Queens
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $10.20 | Rake $1
Board: [Jd 5h Kd Ah Qd]
Seat 1: DrBabyEinstein (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 2: Ampli (small blind) showed [Qh Qc] and won ($9.20) with three of a kind, Queens
Seat 3: break N U (big blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 4: avbuyer didn't bet (folded)
Seat 5: Dray showed [Ad Ks] and lost with two pair, Aces and Kings
Seat 6: RY2008 folded on the Flop

We play for a while and I can't connect a flop to save my life. Then I make some money with 99 off a different moron who can't fold AK:

FullTiltPoker Game #10331139195: Table Bottle (deep 6) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 1:30:42 ET - 2009/01/30
Seat 1: George Schildi ($9.15)
Seat 2: Ampli ($17.85)
Seat 3: maxfazer ($9.90)
Seat 5: Dray ($12.25)
maxfazer posts the small blind of $0.05
Dray posts the big blind of $0.10
George Schildi posts a dead small blind of $0.05
George Schildi posts $0.10
The button is in seat #2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [9s 9d]
George Schildi raises to $0.20
Ampli calls $0.20
maxfazer calls $0.15
Dray raises to $1.20
George Schildi calls $1
Ampli calls $1
maxfazer folds
*** FLOP *** [3s 4h 3h]
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray bets $3
George Schildi calls $3
Ampli folds
*** TURN *** [3s 4h 3h] [7h]
Dray bets $8.05, and is all in
George Schildi calls $4.90, and is all in
Dray shows [9s 9d]
George Schildi shows [Kd Ad]
Uncalled bet of $3.15 returned to Dray
*** RIVER *** [3s 4h 3h 7h] [Tc]
Dray shows two pair, Nines and Threes
George Schildi shows a pair of Threes
Dray wins the pot ($18.65) with two pair, Nines and Threes
George Schildi is sitting out
J-BIRDCR sits down
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $19.65 | Rake $1
Board: [3s 4h 3h 7h Tc]
Seat 1: George Schildi showed [Kd Ad] and lost with a pair of Threes
Seat 2: Ampli (button) folded on the Flop
Seat 3: maxfazer (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 5: Dray (big blind) showed [9s 9d] and won ($18.65) with two pair, Nines and Threes

But back to our original idiot. He leaves and I follow him to another table. I'm playing for a while and when a few pots off of him, nothing to brag about. Then I FINALLY have him in my sites after two hours:

FullTiltPoker Game #10331761799: Table CR - sbrugby - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 2:26:41 ET - 2009/01/30
Seat 1: ekapoker ($10.35)
Seat 2: Ampli ($7.80)
Seat 4: Dray ($15.65)
Seat 5: P4RS0NS ($1.45)
Seat 6: PTR77 ($4.10)
P4RS0NS posts the small blind of $0.05
PTR77 posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Td Tc]
ekapoker folds
Ampli calls $0.10
Dray raises to $0.50
P4RS0NS folds
PTR77 folds
Ampli calls $0.40
*** FLOP *** [3s 5d 2d]
Ampli bets $0.90
Dray raises to $3.40
Ampli has 15 seconds left to act
Ampli calls $2.50
*** TURN *** [3s 5d 2d] [4s]
Ampli bets $0.60
Dray raises to $11.75, and is all in
Ampli calls $3.30, and is all in
Dray shows [Td Tc]
Ampli shows [Jd 2c]
Uncalled bet of $7.85 returned to Dray
*** RIVER *** [3s 5d 2d 4s] [Jh]
Dray shows a pair of Tens
Ampli shows two pair, Jacks and Twos
Ampli wins the pot ($14.75) with two pair, Jacks and Twos
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $15.75 | Rake $1
Board: [3s 5d 2d 4s Jh]
Seat 1: ekapoker didn't bet (folded)
Seat 2: Ampli showed [Jd 2c] and won ($14.75) with two pair, Jacks and Twos
Seat 4: Dray (button) showed [Td Tc] and lost with a pair of Tens
Seat 5: P4RS0NS (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 6: PTR77 (big blind) folded before the Flop


*throws the computer across the room*

Cliff notes for the night: Up 10, back to even, up 10, back to even. Should be up 20, but NOOOOO. Now I have to wait for another set up IF that comes along.

Oh wait update edit. Here's how the story ends:

FullTiltPoker Game #10331973382: Table CR - sbrugby - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 2:48:27 ET - 2009/01/30
Seat 2: Ampli ($18.15)
Seat 4: Dray ($6.35)
Seat 5: uncle33 ($4.65)
Dray posts the small blind of $0.05
uncle33 posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Kc Ac]
Ampli calls $0.10
Dray raises to $0.50
uncle33 folds
Ampli raises to $0.90
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $2.65
Ampli calls $1.75
*** FLOP *** [6h Kd Ts]
Dray checks
Ampli bets $15.50, and is all in
Dray calls $3.70, and is all in
Ampli shows [Ah As]
Dray shows [Kc Ac]
Uncalled bet of $11.80 returned to Ampli
*** TURN *** [6h Kd Ts] [7h]
*** RIVER *** [6h Kd Ts 7h] [Js]
Ampli shows a pair of Aces
Dray shows a pair of Kings
Ampli wins the pot ($12.30) with a pair of Aces
Dray is sitting out
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $12.80 | Rake $0.50
Board: [6h Kd Ts 7h Js]
Seat 2: Ampli (button) showed [Ah As] and won ($12.30) with a pair of Aces
Seat 4: Dray (small blind) showed [Kc Ac] and lost with a pair of Kings
Seat 5: uncle33 (big blind) folded before the Flop

Meh

Just spent the last 4 hours online playing. I did good in the cash games, just played solid. The balance isn't going up though because I've been in shot taking mode the last couple of days. I feel like I just have to get the fuck out of the bankroll rut I'm in. I respect the grind, really I do. But when you get down to it I'll go crazy if I'm struggling to grind a $5 profit every month considering how much time I play this damn game.

So I keep looking back at my July spreadsheet when I was at the exact same place and the only way I got up to like $700 was winning a token and then final tabling a $26 90 man SNG. The problem is I can't afford to be playing all token games. The cycle's been: have a good cash session, take the profits and take a shot once in a while, fail, come back and try again later but just not right away. And I haven't even gotten a token to use and fail that too. AHHHHH!!

I'm peeved I lost the $5 heads up I just played too. It's not in my bankroll rules but dammit I just wanted to win and take that $ to take another shot. My logic is really working at 2:30am lemme tell you.

In outside world news, I have a job interview at 2pm today. It's not a far cry from what I was doing before. It's a Remax real estate company and I'd be working on Broker Price Opinions. The pay's a little less than what I was making, but I'm hoping with my experience I can negotiate into them paying me a little more. I think my best argument will be that since the job requires 30% travel and my car is in ok shape but probably won't be for more than another year or two, they need to pay me more so I can save up for another one.

Sarcasm

Wow staying up super late was a GREAT idea tonight. I'm on tilt right now. Nothing good came of tonight. Nothing.

A perfect example of why tournaments really suck

I wrote a blog a while back about why tournaments are torture. You play well, or get lucky, long enough to make it to a final table. Unfortunately by the time you get there, the only skill left in the game is knowing when to put your chips in.

So, in this final table example from tonight there's over 5K in the pot before the cards are even dealt. I have the biggest stack at the table and if I folded every hand I would only last 5 rounds. Based on the stack sizes no one should be just calling anything. Everyone should be either pushing all in or folding and that's it, according to anyone who's read Harrington on Holdem v2 which is one of the best books on tournament holdem.

So I spend over an hour and a half being patient, playing smart only to have this happen:

Full Tilt Poker Game #10199543812: $3 + $0.30 KO Sit & Go (77297372), Table 1 - 1200/2400 Ante 300 - No Limit Hold'em - 2:33:25 ET - 2009/01/23
Seat 1: Kaybobsaces (27,780)
Seat 2: merscher (20,438)
Seat 3: marcus006 (33,955)
Seat 4: SHancHoPanzza (19,950)
Seat 5: Dray (37,505)
Seat 6: winchester44 (34,064)
Seat 7: canroc (31,678)
Seat 8: qderr (28,314)
Seat 9: rocco4750 (36,316)
Kaybobsaces antes 300
merscher antes 300
marcus006 antes 300
SHancHoPanzza antes 300
Dray antes 300
winchester44 antes 300
canroc antes 300
qderr antes 300
rocco4750 antes 300
merscher posts the small blind of 1,200
marcus006 posts the big blind of 2,400
The button is in seat #1
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Kc Kd]
SHancHoPanzza folds
Dray raises to 6,600
winchester44 folds
canroc folds
qderr folds
rocco4750 folds
Kaybobsaces raises to 10,800
merscher folds
marcus006 has 15 seconds left to act
marcus006 raises to 33,655, and is all in
Dray raises to 37,205, and is all in
Kaybobsaces calls 16,680, and is all in
Dray shows [Kc Kd]
Kaybobsaces shows [Th Tc]
marcus006 shows [Qs Ah]
Uncalled bet of 3,550 returned to Dray
*** FLOP *** [Ad 2d 3d]
*** TURN *** [Ad 2d 3d] [6s]
*** RIVER *** [Ad 2d 3d 6s] [5s]
Dray shows a pair of Kings
marcus006 shows a pair of Aces
marcus006 wins the side pot (12,350) with a pair of Aces
Kaybobsaces shows a pair of Tens
marcus006 wins the main pot (86,340) with a pair of Aces
Dray: *sigh*
Kaybobsaces stands up
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 98,690 Main pot 86,340. Side pot 12,350. | Rake 0
Board: [Ad 2d 3d 6s 5s]
Seat 1: Kaybobsaces (button) showed [Th Tc] and lost with a pair of Tens
Seat 2: merscher (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 3: marcus006 (big blind) showed [Qs Ah] and won (98,690) with a pair of Aces
Seat 4: SHancHoPanzza folded before the Flop
Seat 5: Dray showed [Kc Kd] and lost with a pair of Kings
Seat 6: winchester44 folded before the Flop
Seat 7: canroc folded before the Flop
Seat 8: qderr folded before the Flop
Seat 9: rocco4750 folded before the Flop

A perfect example of why tournaments suck. You spend all your time fighting to get to the end where skill is irrelevant and luck really has more to do with your results than anything you do.

But this is poker and that's what happens. All I can do is the usual: let out a sigh, roll my eyes and move on to the next torture test.

Nasty afternoon cash game

I recently updated my Pokertracker HUD display to include a few new stats. This afternoon I felt I was making good use of the new stats. Long story short, I played a much more aggressive game than I normally do, but it didn't pay off like it should have.

I literally lost every big hand I got dealt in the hour and half session. Look:

FullTiltPoker Game #10170086795: Table Abyss (6 max) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 14:24:13 ET - 2009/01/21
Seat 1: Dray ($7.75)
Seat 2: GaVioN ($19.15)
Seat 3: mxrider ($10)
Seat 4: Honza83 ($10.70)
Seat 5: jun8t ($10.65)
Seat 6: Xman96 ($10)
Honza83 posts the small blind of $0.05
jun8t posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Ks Ah]
Xman96 folds
Dray raises to $0.40
GaVioN folds
Honza83 folds
jun8t calls $0.30
*** FLOP *** [As 5d 7c]
jun8t bets $0.10
Dray calls $0.10
*** TURN *** [As 5d 7c] [9d]
jun8t bets $1.05
Dray calls $1.05
*** RIVER *** [As 5d 7c 9d] [5c]
jun8t bets $3.15
Dray calls $3.15
*** SHOW DOWN ***
jun8t shows [9s Ac] two pair, Aces and Nines
Dray mucks
jun8t wins the pot ($8.55) with two pair, Aces and Nines
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $9.45 | Rake $0.90
Board: [As 5d 7c 9d 5c]
Seat 1: Dray mucked [Ks Ah] - two pair, Aces and Fives
Seat 2: GaVioN (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 3: mxrider is sitting out
Seat 4: Honza83 (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 5: jun8t (big blind) showed [9s Ac] and won ($8.55) with two pair, Aces and Nines
Seat 6: Xman96 didn't bet (folded)


FullTiltPoker Game #10169934811: Table Abyss (6 max) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 14:13:49 ET - 2009/01/21
Seat 1: Dray ($9.90)
Seat 2: GaVioN ($17.85)
Seat 3: thatil22 ($3.45)
Seat 4: Honza83 ($11.60)
Seat 5: jun8t ($5.10)
Seat 6: Xman96 ($8.15)
Dray posts the small blind of $0.05
GaVioN posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #6
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Qh Qs]
thatil22 folds
Honza83 has 15 seconds left to act
Honza83 folds
jun8t raises to $0.20
Xman96 calls $0.20
Dray raises to $1.20
GaVioN folds
jun8t calls $1
Xman96 folds
*** FLOP *** [Tc 7c Kh]
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray bets $2.50
jun8t has 15 seconds left to act
jun8t calls $2.50
*** TURN *** [Tc 7c Kh] [8h]
Dray bets $6.20, and is all in
jun8t calls $1.40, and is all in
Dray shows [Qh Qs]
jun8t shows [Jd 8d]
Uncalled bet of $4.80 returned to Dray
*** RIVER *** [Tc 7c Kh 8h] [9h]
Dray shows a pair of Queens
jun8t shows a straight, Jack high
jun8t wins the pot ($9.45) with a straight, Jack high
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $10.50 | Rake $1.05
Board: [Tc 7c Kh 8h 9h]
Seat 1: Dray (small blind) showed [Qh Qs] and lost with a pair of Queens
Seat 2: GaVioN (big blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 3: thatil22 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 4: Honza83 didn't bet (folded)
Seat 5: jun8t showed [Jd 8d] and won ($9.45) with a straight, Jack high
Seat 6: Xman96 (button) folded before the Flop

FullTiltPoker Game #10170551695: Table Abyss (6 max) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 14:55:04 ET - 2009/01/21
Seat 1: Dray ($15.40)
Seat 2: GaVioN ($19.85)
Seat 3: mxrider ($11.55), is sitting out
Seat 4: JackTenSuitHead ($9.85)
Seat 5: jun8t ($15.30)
Seat 6: Xman96 ($6.05)
GaVioN posts the small blind of $0.05
JackTenSuitHead posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #1
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Ac Ad]
jun8t calls $0.10
Xman96 raises to $0.50
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $1.50
GaVioN folds
JackTenSuitHead folds
jun8t has 15 seconds left to act
jun8t calls $1.40
Xman96 calls $1
*** FLOP *** [9d Qd 4s]
jun8t has 15 seconds left to act
jun8t bets $0.90
Xman96 raises to $4.55, and is all in
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $13.90, and is all in
JackTenSuitHead adds $0.25
jun8t has 15 seconds left to act
jun8t folds
Dray shows [Ac Ad]
Xman96 shows [9c 9s]
Uncalled bet of $9.35 returned to Dray
*** TURN *** [9d Qd 4s] [Th]
*** RIVER *** [9d Qd 4s Th] [Jc]
Dray shows a pair of Aces
Xman96 shows three of a kind, Nines
Xman96 wins the pot ($13.65) with three of a kind, Nines
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $14.65 | Rake $1
Board: [9d Qd 4s Th Jc]
Seat 1: Dray (button) showed [Ac Ad] and lost with a pair of Aces
Seat 2: GaVioN (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 3: mxrider is sitting out
Seat 4: JackTenSuitHead (big blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 5: jun8t folded on the Flop
Seat 6: Xman96 showed [9c 9s] and won ($13.65) with three of a kind, Nines


Finally the biggest hand near the end of the session:

FullTiltPoker Game #10170987439: Table Abyss (6 max) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 15:23:14 ET - 2009/01/21
Seat 1: Dray ($15.45)
Seat 2: GaVioN ($13.15)
Seat 3: k1ddan1el ($11.10)
Seat 4: khalel1 ($8.80)
Seat 5: jun8t ($6.45)
Seat 6: Xman96 ($15.45)
Xman96 posts the small blind of $0.05
Dray posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #5
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Ks Kc]
GaVioN raises to $0.20
k1ddan1el folds
khalel1 raises to $0.70
jun8t folds
Xman96 folds
Dray calls $0.60
GaVioN raises to $1.50
khalel1 calls $0.80
Dray calls $0.80
*** FLOP *** [3s Jd 7h]
Dray checks
GaVioN has 15 seconds left to act
GaVioN bets $2
khalel1 raises to $7.30, and is all in
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $13.95, and is all in
GaVioN calls $9.65, and is all in
Dray shows [Ks Kc]
GaVioN shows [Ah Ad]
khalel1 shows [Qc Qs]
Uncalled bet of $2.30 returned to Dray
*** TURN *** [3s Jd 7h] [5s]
*** RIVER *** [3s Jd 7h 5s] [2s]
Dray shows a pair of Kings
GaVioN shows a pair of Aces
GaVioN wins the side pot ($8.70) with a pair of Aces
khalel1 shows a pair of Queens
GaVioN wins the main pot ($24.45) with a pair of Aces
khalel1 is sitting out
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $35.15 Main pot $26.45. Side pot $8.70. | Rake $2
Board: [3s Jd 7h 5s 2s]
Seat 1: Dray (big blind) showed [Ks Kc] and lost with a pair of Kings
Seat 2: GaVioN showed [Ah Ad] and won ($33.15) with a pair of Aces
Seat 3: k1ddan1el didn't bet (folded)
Seat 4: khalel1 showed [Qc Qs] and lost with a pair of Queens
Seat 5: jun8t (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 6: Xman96 (small blind) folded before the Flop

I had a really bad feeling about GavioN that I ignored. Once he min raised, then rereaised (4bet in online terms) the alarms went off. Oh well.

Depressed

It seems like every time I start up a cash game session now I lose either a full stack or half of one and spend the next X amount of hours trying to break even. It pisses me off that I have to table select at nickel dime cash games because there are so many people playing 8 tables of it.

My account is now below $200 again after being at $700+ in August. I'm close to 20K hands at nickel/dime and I'm down 8 buyins. It makes me sick that I can't beat the lowest level cash game online, even when half the table are loose passive calling stations playing 50% of their hands. I'm card dead and can't bluff them so I sit for hours at a time waiting to connect with SOMETHING I can win a pot with.

When I do get a hand I can't fucking let it go because I've waited for so long to even get something remotely playable. It makes me feel like the biggest weak/tight fish at the table.

I sat down and actually analyzed November's stats and I was a small winner in cash games, a buyin maybe so I guess there's hope. I know my best session this week was at the station where I made $20 in 15 minutes because I had cards, but I didn't save that hand history to Pokertracker at home. But in looking at what I lost overall I can easily say that half of it was playing the $11 midnight madness tournament 4 times.

So as of now I'm restricting myself to nickel/dime (possibly half buyins because of my low roll) and $2.25 sngs. That's it. If I want to play multitable tourneys or satellites, they will be for points and points only.

Yet ANOTHER example of overcard+flush draw missing twice

Full Tilt Poker Game #9259362780: Table Gordo (6 max) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 1:35:58 ET - 2008/12/01
Seat 1: mixxman ($11.10), is sitting out
Seat 2: BabaBubu ($10)
Seat 3: Cohete Punch ($10)
Seat 4: Dray ($10.65)
Seat 5: lopezer85 ($10.25)
Seat 6: KillerWeed20 ($13.95)
Cohete Punch posts the small blind of $0.05
Dray posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [Qd 3d]
lopezer85 calls $0.10
KillerWeed20 folds
BabaBubu folds
Cohete Punch adds $0.05
Cohete Punch folds
Dray checks
*** FLOP *** [2s Jd 8d]
Dray checks
lopezer85 bets $0.25
Dray raises to $0.75
lopezer85 calls $0.50
*** TURN *** [2s Jd 8d] [4h]
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray bets $0.95
lopezer85 calls $0.95
*** RIVER *** [2s Jd 8d 4h] [Ks]
Dray checks
lopezer85 checks
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Dray shows [Qd 3d] King Queen high
lopezer85 shows [Tc Jh] a pair of Jacks
lopezer85 wins the pot ($3.30) with a pair of Jacks
Dray adds $1.15
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $3.65 | Rake $0.35
Board: [2s Jd 8d 4h Ks]
Seat 1: mixxman is sitting out
Seat 2: BabaBubu (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 3: Cohete Punch (small blind) folded before the Flop
Seat 4: Dray (big blind) showed [Qd 3d] and lost with King Queen high
Seat 5: lopezer85 showed [Tc Jh] and won ($3.30) with a pair of Jacks
Seat 6: KillerWeed20 didn't bet (folded)

Dear poker gods

I'm so fucking sick of every seemingly big flopped combo draw missing. Can I PLEASE win one of these flips? P L E A S E????

Couple of examples:

FullTiltPoker Game #9222299617: Table Helena (6 max) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 23:59:58 ET - 2008/11/28
Seat 1: oceansaprt ($38.40)
Seat 2: jimsmyuncle ($3.05)
Seat 3: Dray ($10.35)
Seat 4: alexsleepy ($1.90)
Seat 5: Vilberto ($22.50)
Seat 6: naturallight52 ($8)
Dray posts the small blind of $0.05
alexsleepy posts the big blind of $0.10
The button is in seat #2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [7h Ah]
Vilberto folds
naturallight52 calls $0.10
oceansaprt folds
jimsmyuncle folds
Dray calls $0.05
alexsleepy checks
*** FLOP *** [9s Qh 5h]
Dray checks
alexsleepy bets $0.30
naturallight52 calls $0.30
Dray raises to $1.50
alexsleepy folds
naturallight52 calls $1.20
*** TURN *** [9s Qh 5h] [7s]
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray bets $2
naturallight52 raises to $4
Dray has 15 seconds left to act
Dray raises to $8.75, and is all in
naturallight52 calls $2.40, and is all in
Dray shows [7h Ah]
naturallight52 shows [Qc Jc]
Uncalled bet of $2.35 returned to Dray
*** RIVER *** [9s Qh 5h 7s] [8d]
Dray shows a pair of Sevens
naturallight52 shows a pair of Queens
naturallight52 wins the pot ($14.80) with a pair of Queens
Dray: nh
Dray adds $7.65
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $16.40 | Rake $1.60
Board: [9s Qh 5h 7s 8d]
Seat 1: oceansaprt didn't bet (folded)
Seat 2: jimsmyuncle (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 3: Dray (small blind) showed [7h Ah] and lost with a pair of Sevens
Seat 4: alexsleepy (big blind) folded on the Flop
Seat 5: Vilberto didn't bet (folded)
Seat 6: naturallight52 showed [Qc Jc] and won ($14.80) with a pair of Queens



FullTiltPoker Game #9222404455: Table Helena (6 max) - $0.05/$0.10 - No Limit Hold'em - 0:07:34 ET - 2008/11/29
Seat 1: oceansaprt ($37.95)
Seat 2: jimsmyuncle ($3.55)
Seat 3: Dray ($10)
Seat 5: Vilberto ($24.35)
Seat 6: naturallight52 ($14.50)
Dray posts the small blind of $0.05
Vilberto posts the big blind of $0.10
akira893 adds $10
The button is in seat #2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Dray [4s As]
naturallight52 calls $0.10
oceansaprt calls $0.10
jimsmyuncle folds
Dray calls $0.05
Vilberto has 15 seconds left to act
Vilberto checks
*** FLOP *** [Js 8s 3c]
Dray bets $0.25
Vilberto calls $0.25
naturallight52 has 15 seconds left to act
naturallight52 folds
oceansaprt folds
*** TURN *** [Js 8s 3c] [5h]
Dray checks
Vilberto has 15 seconds left to act
Vilberto bets $0.50
Dray calls $0.50
*** RIVER *** [Js 8s 3c 5h] [6d]
Dray checks
Vilberto checks
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Vilberto shows [4c 3s] a pair of Threes
Dray mucks
Vilberto wins the pot ($1.75) with a pair of Threes
Dray adds $0.85
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $1.90 | Rake $0.15
Board: [Js 8s 3c 5h 6d]
Seat 1: oceansaprt folded on the Flop
Seat 2: jimsmyuncle (button) didn't bet (folded)
Seat 3: Dray (small blind) mucked [4s As] - Ace Jack high
Seat 5: Vilberto (big blind) showed [4c 3s] and won ($1.75) with a pair of Threes
Seat 6: naturallight52 folded on the Flop

I think I'm done with free poker

and it has nothing to do with the caliber of player. I know some people like Bruce don't want to play because the players are so bad. That doesn't bother. I like playing with bad players because I feel I can exploit their mistakes, and I don't mind if their mistakes pay off in the short term. It only further cements that they will be long-time losers and, chances are, they'll never realize it either.

No the reason I'm done with this shit is the player's level of respect for one another. I'm tired of seeing assholes arguing and getting egotistical about a free fucking poker game. I had to sit next two players arguing and bitching last night and thank god I have an iPod now so I could just drown them the fuck out.

My new mantra in life is "I choose to be happy, instead of having to be right". I'm done fucking arguing with people about nothing that gets nowhere. I'm done trying to convince brick walls of anything. Instead I would rather be happy than expend energy trying to be right. If I know I'm right, that's all I need. I don't need to convince anyone else of it.

I was still pissed about all of this last night when I got home and in turn, pissed off Kristina. We both went to bed mad. I'm still mad this morning, but moreso about the end of my night than anything else. That's another new resolution I'm going to try to stick to: never bring the tilt home. I'm going to try and expend all the negative energy before I step foot in my apartment. Because it's just fucking retarded that she's mad because I'm mad, and when I'm doing being mad, she's still mad that I was mad and now I'm mad again because you aren't getting over it.

Ack. Fuck this day.