Mindless poker

Super tired last night but I hopped on Full Tilt anyways and took a shot in a $26 45 man. No cash though. 21/45 I think. I totally goofed on one hand raising to 400 for a btn steal and then realized I had a ss on my left that only had like 500. I had Q2 and he shoved QJ so I had to call and didn't suck out. The only benefit I saw was now people might call my lighter and I can double up. That didn't happen unfortunately.

Last hand I shoved QT from mp and was called by 77. Flop missed, turn was the Q but the river a 7. Alas.

Maybe next time. I'm not going to use another token until I earn two more.

Had a good cash session this morning to put me back up to 600.

Feeling the itch

Reading all this stuff about WSOP is making me want to earn a seat SO bad. I really think I can do it though. Right now I'm sitting on 4 tokens. I'm just going to keep playing cash and tier one token sngs until I get a few more.

I'm going to try and use the tier system though, go for $75 tokens and then try and satellite. It looks like there are $75 double stack bracelet race satellites that should award more seats. That's what I'm thinking.

Haven't played much since last week. Mom was in town and clung to the laptop most of the weekend so I really didn't have any opportunities. Kristina's working Friday night though so I expect to put in a good little session then.

New habit to employ

I downloaded Pokertracker a couple months ago, along with the trial version of PA HUD but have really failed to utilize it like I should. I think a good goal to have right now is to focus on getting a good sample of cash game hands, probably at 10NL and then evaluate leaks. Or at least get someone else to evaluate for me b/c I'm pretty intimidated by all the stats it spits out at you.

I never really like to play just one type of game online though. I'm almost always switching back and forth between cash games and sngs.

BTW I got a small BR boost with another affilliate deposit the other night. Still only puts me up to around 600 though. I'm sitting on one token, first one I've earned since the new update. Now when you get to the point where we all get a token it just shuts the tournament down so you don't have to shove every hand just to end it. I know I always say I'm going to save these up and try to use the tier system, but I think I'm really gonna try this time.

I feel like I'm off my satellite kick, which I think has been a major contributor to some of this downswing, and am ready to just focus on BR building again. I've been back to $5 and $10 45 mans, but only a 6th so far to show for it. Maybe if I get like 4 or 5 tokens I might take another shot at a DS 90 man turbo. That was how I bounced back at the beginning of February.

I'm still pissed that I took shots at 50NL when I shouldn't have, b/c otherwise I wouldn't be so low. I blame it all on Pat the online degenerate who made me jealous by running hot last month. I just had to try it for myself (which never works btw). And now he's subsequently lost all his profit because he has no sense of BR management whatsoever.

Sorry to be negative

It's funny how the first blog of the year was so positive and full of energy and hope. Then it seems like every other entry after that has been complaint after complaint. I hate that I've become such a negative Nancy. I wish I could have the reaction to downswings like the CR pro's do and go "well that's unfortunate" and then keep going like nothing ever happened.

I like to think I take my lumps reasonably well. I've definitely gotten better over the last 3 years since I started playing. But when I'm losing consistently for a long stretch of time I really haven't mastered keeping a neutral demeanor.

I just feel like lately I have to get lucky to win even the hands where I'm a big favorite, not even just coinflips. Went and played at Merkaba last night and busted soon after it went to 1K/2K.

Came home and entered a $11 45 man SNG and barely played a hand until I went over the top with AK for about 18-20BB, called by KQ. Flop is K Q x. Turn x. River A. This is what I'm talking about. Next hand same player shoves utg for 10bb, I isolate with AQ and he shows A5 and hits the 5 on the flop. Last hand I shoved 10bb with AK in mp, and bb wakes up with KK. The end.

Arg. I'm really guilty about playing more when I'm losing too. I definitely have that compulsion to where I want to get it back as soon as I can after I lose it. Well, that's not true. I just always want to save face and end on a positive note. I don't feel like I have to get back to even before I can finish. I just want to win a hand or cash in a SNG or something to take the sting off.

I'm trying to get staked to go to New Orleans in May and play the WSOP circuit. We'll see what happens.